[ 9:41 PM ]
8 more days to Hari Raya.
have not yet buy my clothes.
damn.
freak freak freak.
wonder how i will celebrate that should-be-a-happy-day-for-muslim.
without darjat around its totally different.
serious shit.
tears have been taking over my used-to-be-nice sleeps.
is he alright now?
will he be ok on the 13 october?
how will he feel on that particular day?
what will he be doing?
do they treat him good?
lots of question without an answer.
;(
oh god..
only You know how is his condition now.
only You know how is his conduct.
only You know how is he doing.
going geylang make me reminished the time i fakely stead with him on the 23 October 2006. acting like a couple infront of DQ gave a great impact.
the way he hug me,
scolded me for dashing the road,
held my hand,
wipe my sweat,
buy for me my favourite drink and more make me feel the real love i have been dying for. no lies made.
& two days followed by that we are officially together.
25 october 2006.
hah, you was super duper happy that at last, i decided to get back to you after 4 years of waiting huh?
i bet the feeling of waiting for me sucks kann?
now its my turn & yeah its totally tak gerek.
........................
even typing this makes my eyes blurred by tears. why? why is this the first time i cried because of a guy?
he's still alive and in the same country with you,nana. just pray for him ok..he too loves you. everything tells clearly in the letters. its just that his freedom has been conqured by some bastards people for now.
random: firdaus, nadra, nadia & darjat
that two adorable kids has been asking about you dear. FYI, they slept by listening & watching your video through their mom's hp. & also, kak seri even cried when she listens to a specific hari raya song.
you'd been missed.alot.
people, is this called the real love? i hope so.
& i envy couples nowadays.
darjat,
the feeling is different now. i hope you have learn your lessons which i believe you had. we want to see and have you back asap. dont think about the people that has been talking and judging you from the back badly. they are nuts and immatured. 21 more days to our one year anniversary. remember every 25th we will always meet up? although we only celebrate our monthsaries in the last november & december, not from january till now, but hey! i still treasure the date. well, this is life isn't it? patients and learn. you know what i mean & what i want.
darjat, i love you. & i'll be patient.
