iNfAtUaTiOn

2009-04-17T12:55:00.003+08:00

I FUCKING WANTS AN OFF DAY.
CB.

2009-04-09T14:14:00.001+08:00

"come, i amek kan you nasi. kesian sayang i penat keje. balek pulak lambat"."
boyfriend is sweet as ever. <3

im working 1700 the whole of this week. lucky there's Grace, Mark, Wanti and Jufri. because i think, if i had to work with the new batch or yang sangat senior, comfirm my working life will be super mendak. i just woke up, actually. working at night is simply tired, especially when you are to go to Budget Terminal whenever you're working this shift. there are additional flight coming in. worst, flight has been delayed for a couple of times due to bad weather. and worst worst worst, we are short of manpowers. CB.

ouh yea! lets post about Aisy's first birthday bash.
-29march.

i want babies!
because they are super adorable.
:)

thats it.
got to meet Grace at 3.30pm.
bathing time!

2009-04-04T03:31:00.005+08:00

Speak when you are angry, and you will make the best speech you'll ever regret.
-Laurence J Peter Wise

i am absolutely angry at my boyfriend.
very very very angry.
i dont wish to message him.
i dont wish to talk to him.
i dont wish to hear his voice.
i dont wish to wake him up everyday at 0730.
i dont wish to tell him if im okay at work or have i eaten.
i dont wish to inform him about my whereabouts.
i dont wish to remind him to stop being cut by anything at his workplace.
i dont wish to hear any news about or from him.
i dont wish to say i missed him.
i dont wish to say i loved him.

BUT

i wish to meet him today to settle things out.

2009-04-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

STOP MESSAGING ME, FUCK!

2009-04-02T03:13:00.003+08:00

Small deeds done are better than great deeds planned.
-Peter Marshall

im at work. yes yes, at last. i dont know if im gonna continue working here as the ground staff. till when right? i wanna upgrade myself la. i thought and might be applying for air stewardess under Silk Air. or maybeeeeeeeeee Montessori or maybeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Childcare Teacher. i dont know yet.
lalalove wants me to quit this job because of the hectic shift but i need to get a new job first before i end this line. oh god! why is it difficult to find jobs this days? infect, diploma grads are doing nothing. they cant find any jobs that are suitable to their certs. some are working as cleaners eventhough they are holding diploma and some are being office boy/girl.
world world world.
economy economy economy.
pfft.

nvm lah. yesterday i met up with mamat. he was kinda pissed at first because he waited for me for around 2 hours. but when he saw me coming down from the bus, wearing the dress that he likes, terus tak marah. lol. funny lah ini anak. we then went to have our brunch and headed to karaoke.
gerek lah oi!

2009-04-01T11:03:00.003+08:00

i've not been coming to work for the past five days, including today.
tak perlu tau ah knape.
^_^

yesterday i met lalalove after his work. we went for our dinner and walked around.
seriously, i super love to go out with him at night. :)
i will be meeting him again today, after his reporting. which means half an hours time. i've yet to bath and iron my clothes.

guess, he has to wait for me, AGAIN.
best best.

oh! i'll post about Aisy 1st birthday once i got the pictures from kakak alright.
&&
ain, mira.
sentosa lagi jom.

2009-03-26T10:29:00.002+08:00

they met, after so long.
"_"

Families are like fudge,
mostly sweet with a few nuts.
-Anonymous

2009-03-25T03:30:00.003+08:00

A bend in the road is not the end of the road.
Unless you fail to make the turn.
-Anon

i quarrelled with Loverboy yesterday. we didnt contact at all. my mom was freakin pissed after i told her what'd happened. NO, not pissed at mamat but me. ME!!!!! so after 'advising' me, i decided to msg him just once and apologised. tapi itu anak sengaje taknak reply. pfft.

at 11.37pm,
nana: hello.
mamat: i geram ngan youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
nana: tau.
mamat: tapi i rindu....
nana: tau.
mamat: ego ah kite dua.
nana: tau.
mamat: sayang, gi tdo. nanti i kejut. i TAU you're sleeping.
nana: okay, syg you. bye bye.

thats it. we're gooooooooood now.

Dear, happy 29th monthsaries!
I love you baby,
whole heartedly.

2009-03-24T03:14:00.005+08:00

Simplicity is making the journey of this life with just baggage enough.
-Anon

i reached home approximately around 9pm yesterday. i am extremely tired but what can i possible do? i had to work to support my ownself because i dont wish to take anymore money from my parents. im working 3am for the whole of this week and that kinda sucks big time. morning flight is horrible i tell you. although time really flies but the long queue added with passengers yang sesungguhnye tak boleh sabar, can seriouly screw your day up.
tired tired tired.
i wanna have a break pleaseeee.

2009-03-23T03:40:00.004+08:00

i watched Coming Soon with the dearest last few days.
it was a nice shocking-like movie.
i like the storyline because i think its unique in its own way.
eh, macam promote cerita ni pulak.
all in all, go and watch it. its nice.
matair aku pekik oi tengok cerita ni.
lol.
:D

afters was spent walking home with him, back to his place.
we talked.
we fought.
we hugged.
we sang some songs.
we laughed.
we quarelled.
we kissed.i love you sweetheart.

2009-03-20T05:18:00.001+08:00

at 1.32am,
dad: nak gi mane?
me: keje ah.
dad: keje? tak penat ke? baru balek tadi.
me: tadi balek keje i go out with my friends.
dad: oh. abe tak penat? asyik keje jer.
me: carik duit.....
dad: oh. nak kahwin ehk.............
me: urgh.

oh, parents! ^.^"

i met up with my Mercu babies a few days back. it was a nice catched up session with them although there was some last minute changes. Mira sweetheart planned out everything but alas, sesungguhnye janji melayu memang janji melayu.

(1)"strictly 7.30pm must reach Clarke Quay Mrt station okay!"
(2)"babe, aku lambat tau. baru nak kluar rumah ni."
(3)"ain, you with who? im on my way there. sorry ehk lambat."
(4)"me, my sis and her fren. syaz norin otw. drg lambat."
(5)"sorry uh. aku kene patah balek. ade hal uh."
and the list goes onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn and onnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.
mcm CB kan perangai satu satu classmate aku ni. lol. but yet they are a nice bunch.

2009-03-17T23:32:00.000+08:00

i miss my tralalalove.
:(

2009-03-13T03:26:00.003+08:00

i woke up late just now. so it was my first time to bath for only 20 minutes.
-_-"

i paid my bills yesterday with the love and we had a great time together, laughing away by the roadside eating waffles. :)

you know, at times i got super irritated with the boy. i feel like smacking his face for his silly jokes, which i cant denied that its a funny ones uh. i feel like kicking his ass when he continues to make me laugh even after telling him that im having cramps. i feel like strangling him whenever he gave reasons for not answering my calls or for not replying to any of my messages. worst, i feel like punching pinching and biting his chest for disturbing Aisy. but when he falls asleep at my lap, his face is as innocent as a young kid who doesnt know the meaning of a mistake. macam budak kecik oi matair aku tido. lol. i like to disturb him when he's asleep. he will get irritated by me and then will hug me until i struggle out to GET some air. dammit kan.

baby, i love you tripple lots.

2009-03-12T03:36:00.003+08:00

hahahahahah.
once again, my tagboard goes BOM!
:D

why must you people hide yourself behind the screens?
why cant you just approach me directly?
the labels of MINAH and MATREP to any human beings here was back then lah ehk. tu zaman da habis lah. mamat has got nothing to do with my tagboard so why must you people talked about him? blum puas kutuk die lagi? blum puas tengok die takde kat luar ni? if you're 'actually' praying hard that he goes in again, then go. go and try hard, really HARD. because as his gf, i know him inside out than you guys out here, who has no life but to just talk and talk about people (behind the screens of yours, though). korang semua nak bebual ngan kutuk aku ngan mamat? nak amek dosa aku ngan die kan, go ahead.
aku lagi suke. :)
me and the 'matrep' of mine is used to all this,actually. since sec one. our relationship has always been a peaceful one although there's alot of scarcasm(s) blurted out by YOU people out there, either to me or him or even both.
wtv it is, if you think he's still a matrep and a sickening ass bf to me, or im a minah and a girl who has zero meaning of embarassed, then be it. as long as you're happy leading your own pengecut life. go on and talk about people. you will definitely support your ownself.
takecare peeps!
:)

Fear knock at the door.
Faith answered.
And lo, no one was there.
-Anonymous

2009-03-10T20:39:00.006+08:00

aku minah?
matair dgn mat?
hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha.
i shall take it as a compliment then. nice couple kan kite?
thanks anna! :)

i went to town few days back with kakak and we had a great time together. especially when her husband and my lalalove had to go for their kompang. went to Orchard Plaza to survey some stuff and then headed down to many other places.
-void deck while waiting for the boys to reach home.

-them.

2009-03-08T11:05:00.006+08:00

i have not been sleeping at home since babyboy's birthday. i mean, on and off i'll be at home, spending my time helping mom with the chores and disturbing her here and there. each of my family members is just busy with their own life lah sey. and i miss them alot.
Along is not working anymore because he fought at work; punched his supervisor's face. So now, he's going for interview(s). Angah will come with his family to sleepover at my house during his off days. Saurus is busy working. Shahid is busy with workshops as he's sitting down for his PSLE. Dad is working so does mom. so yeah~~ thats the reason why im seldom at home even during the night. pfft.

i spend my time at work work work work and with my sayang. but that doesnt mean, i totally forget about my babygirls okay. i saved the post about my meet ups with DQ a few days back, so just read lah ehk.

....................
(04032009)i went for a quick nap during my break and i think i regret it.
cause why?
i woke up having a sore eye.
now, im having a super red right eye.
:(

after work was spent with dearest Drama Queen at T3. ouh yesss, she came down to airport all the way with a friend of hers, Siti, just to spend some quality time with me. sweet kan itu anak? initially i planned to meet her next Thursday but that girl da tak sabar dari dulu pestering me to meet up, so we changed it to today. :)
Seven days without laughter makes one week.
-Mort Walker

2009-03-06T03:23:00.002+08:00

Asking a working writer what he thinks about critics is like asking a lamppost how it feels about dogs.
-Christopher Hampton

i'll update about my meet up with Dearest DQ soon. cause im suppose to check in the passengers now, not blogging.
:)

2009-03-03T19:01:00.005+08:00

im extremely tired but i cant sleep.
i hate it when this happens.

i decided to blog (again for today), and post pictures from bf's birthday. lol. lame kan?? da masok march pun. i just received a call from the love and our conversation goes:
nana: hello.
mamat: hello hello hello sayang.....!
nana: eh hi sayang! takde kereta ke?
mamat: ade. i cabot kejap.
nana: why? noty ehk!
mamat: ala... i cant take it lah.
nana: what happen?
mamat: i miss you so much. i want to hear your voice. kejap pun jadi ah.
nana: (laugh) you ah! nak dengar? aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. da?
mamat: da.
nana: okay bye bye.
mamat: bye bye sayang.

selenger kan kite? i know. you shut up.

alright.
summary: karaoke-ed at grandlink. seram dok tempat tu.. headed back to his crib around 9pm. was forced to entertain him until 11plus pm. he slept WHILE i was talking(!!!!!!). pulled him up to wake up and went out to the living room. and here goes, pictures from 9th February. oh before that, ignore mamat's stinkedoink face because that boy didnt had his sleep the day before so yea, i think you can see for yourself. thats it.
working later at 3am.
goodnight!

2009-03-03T09:18:00.003+08:00

im at BT since 4am with Elly today.
yesterday night's flight was cancelled and so the night staff had to 'jage' the passengers until we reached so that they could get on to the morning flight. it sucks big time la oi.

now im sitting at the counter, SUPPOSINGLY to check-in passengers going to Manila by Cebu Pacific but here i am, blogging. -_-
mamat is not answering any of my calls. and i wonder if he's otw to work or not. because he has not been sleeping for a day or two, so yeahhhhh~~
almaklumlah ehk, bile burung burung hantu da bertemu.

my life now is plain boringgggggggggggggg. work work work.
i planned to cancel my off days this week and work 3am throughout until next fri before my off day comes again. TETAPI, this man of mine is yacking away macam budak kecik saying "bile nak meet? bile nak meet? dont you have any feelings of missing SOMEONE? i miss you so much lah. meet uh yang... :( "

hahahahahahhaa. i always find it funny when my boyfriend does that.

thats it lah. got to go to gate now.

2009-03-01T11:14:00.003+08:00

work has been such a hell.
home, worst.

but boyfriend is still sweet as ever.
:)

2009-02-15T14:58:00.002+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
my tagboard!!!!
lol.

luqman, i agree with you.
da macam drama iondonesia lah.
hahahahahahahaha.

ala, put that aside lah. gado lah korang. malas aku nak masok campur.
because i think its plain stupid to hide behind the screens and tag at people's blog about imperfection and all. i believe everyone has their own 'angel and devil's attitude'. whatever lah ehk.

.........
im now at work, rotting as usual.
i miss my bed.
i miss my mirror.
i miss my room.
:(

i have not been going home often since Love's birthday.
oh yea, i'll blog about it with picturessssssssss soon.
thats it.
my stomach is playing drumrolls.
off to brunch.
toodles.
:)

2009-02-07T21:19:00.003+08:00

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww, short hair.

wow wow wow!
my tagboard.
HAHA.

well, dearest 'haha', please dont make a hoohaa down here alright.
i dont go for looks neither i want any guys with a sexy body. so what if you claims that my boyfriend is fat? so what if you claims that his nose is like an onion? does that has anything to do with you? or wait! have you been going out with my boyfriend to the extend that his appearance bothers you so much? until you had to come down here making a mess in my tagboard? wanting me to do an operation on him? huh????? come on lah babe! my boyfriend, my life. im the one who faced him everyday. dont juggle up la bimbo. even if he's fucking ugly in your eyes, be it okay. its your prob and not mine. if you're not happy with his looks, then i suggest, strongly suggest that you go for a prayer and asked God. i think its you who needs help because i think MAYBE you are abitttttttttttttttttttt uglier than him. so i understand thats the reason why YOU are hiding behind the screen. lol. asal? bodek atau tetek tersendat kat tekak pe? uhuh! dear dear dear 'haha', i pity you. what to do.....

oh yea. i dont need a single tiny care from you of how he treats me lah. whatever he do, is TO me, not to anyone else.

"if hes a nice guy, he wont end up in rtc.."
great! typical singaporean.
so typical. you are a heartless creature you know? there is nothing that got to do with you pe. why must you mentioned about it? being nice doesnt mean we are serious fucking shit nice and kind. who doesnt make mistakes? come, tell me.

you know babe, im glad that he went into RTC although its hard for me out here. because why? it teaches him to be more responsible, matured and to be a positive thinker. you should try going in there, or self-voluntary to go in, to be exact. that will at least teach you some manners and respect. i'll support you. :)

babylove: sayang. ignore okay? we are not disturbing them. take it as they are mentally ill. da da.
.....................
09 February is coming. its babylove's birthday.
and
i have nothing in mind.
-_"

2009-02-04T12:56:00.004+08:00

i just woke up.
i am very tired.
my body's aching.

i reached home approximately at 4.30am from babylove's place earlier today. i forced him to take a day off because i miss him so much. yesterday was fun. no no, actually whenever we met up, it is always a colourful day for me. my life is like a rainbow. lol. whatever to me.
-_____________-"

i accompanied my beloved mummy to Hougang Green to withdraw some cash before rushing off to meet babyboy. i am late, as usual. we headed down to Mac to have our breakfast before proceeding back to his crib because i am so fussy that i want to go to his home toilet and NOT the hub or mane mane toilet lain. so the boy, being ultra patient with my nonsense, bring me back to his crib just so that i can be quiet and do my business.

mamat: da? nak kluar lagi?
nana: ermmmm. lazy ah.
mamat: *deep sigh* ok, we stay at home je.
nana: marah?
mamat: no lah. sayang...
nana: yay! sayang you too. now, i wanna change. then lets watch dvds.
mamat: this girl ah! -_-

so me, mamat, kakak, aisy and abang naz watched the movie Tiren(died yesterday). the movie was a nice one. some part was m18 type and some part was a hilarious one. most of it leads me to hug mamat and close my eyes. afters was spent debating, playing games, listening to musics and laughing away with him in the room. :D
around 7plus, when my stomach starts to play drumrolls, we went to pasar malam to get some food together with abang naz and kakak. reached home, eat and karaoke-ed until 10plus before i fall asleep. si mamat ni pantang nampak aku tido, comfirm die pun ikut. worst, i went home without waking him up and accidentally bring back his phone.

now, i cant call or msg him because his phone is with me.
:(

2009-02-02T12:37:00.000+08:00

You have enemies?
Good.
That means you've stood up for something,
sometime in your life.
-Winston Churchill.

.......................
to whom it may concern,
IM BACKING OFF.
i wont be in your life anymore. i dont want it to get worst like what you'd mentioned. i will leave okay? so that you will carry on and totally forget about me. i am making it more miserable right? now, thats what i dont wish to happen. i want you to enjoy your life. you're doing great kan? carry on then. im happy for you and this is real, im not bluffing or whatsoever. i know you are extremely disappointed and angry in me. my doings was unpredictable huh. i know you hate me worst than how much you hated that particular girl. its okay. im not blaming you. you have your say and i have mine. take care of yourself, if you want to. and ya! i miss you, just so you know. bye!
....................

2009-02-01T19:53:00.005+08:00

i cant sleep though im working later at 3am.
and this sucks cos i will definitely feel sleepy once at work.

i took a last hour break today so i reached home around 12pm. somehow, today, i feel a sense of loneliness. mamat did called me up as usual and everything but i just feel something's missing. i hate this kind of feelings tau because it makes my heartbeat goes faster and faster. macam aku nak dekat mati lah pulak~~~~
on the other hand, i've been posted to SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC in ARCHITECTURE.
pfft. tak suke tak suke!!!!! i have discussed with my parents and mamat about it. i dont think im going to poly although i've given the chance this time round. alah, you may think that im doing a stupid decision but i have something else in mind. :D

ouh ya! picturessss on the 26th.

look at my boyfriend now. dulu skuding sekarang amek kau!!! mamat's body is getting bigger due to his 'bikin badan'. ahhhh, i just dont understand guys. takpelah, i sayang you still okay.

you know, i am actually forcing myself to sleep but with the laptop infront of me, how how?? tell me how? lol. oh! helmi was soooooo nice to help me out doing Ho Chin Minh flight after someone screwed me up about the visa violation. thanks to you ehk! im the one who gets the trouble when you are the one who let the passenger off without a visa. CB!
see, semangat tau die tulis kan aku.

okaylah. thats all for today. off to perang with mamat due to something.
goodnight world.

2009-01-29T15:52:00.002+08:00

my pay will be deducted due to some reasons.
worst, it is not a hundred bucks, but it'll be more than 200 bucks.
ASSHOLE!

ahhh. enough of that uh. lets talk about last sunday and monday. i have fun, extremely ENJOYABLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE days spent with mamat. :D hahhaa. aku suke~~~
Sunday meet up was a nice and lovely one. it marked our 27th monthsaries so yeah, lovey-dovey for that day.
Monday was much more of a happening moment of me and mamat. i followed him to Changi Beach together with his family including kak Seri. his aunts and uncles had some kind of a last minute plans so we decided to hang out with them. at first it kinda sucks because there was so many malays and i feel suffocated. bersepah la oii! but as time flies, i had fun camwhoring with mamat, walking here and there with him, being piggyback, laughed laughed laughed, eating ice creamsssssssssssss, etc etc etc.
afters was spend going back to his crib until it was absolutely dark before heading home.

Dear, i wanna go to the beach again pretty pleaseeee....

ouh ya! i've yet to posted pictures because my phone is not with me. so i'll post about it soon aite.

thats it. off to bed. working at 3am later.

take care world!

2009-01-24T09:35:00.002+08:00

working now with dear Donna.
haaha. at last!

i have Taipei counter later on at 1030 and thats it for the day. :)
after work, i might be going to Grace house for her daughter or son (i cant remember actually) birthday party, with Donna. OR im coming down to Tampines Starbucks, as usual, to meet Saurus together with his friends to see Wanie, Yus's gf.
YEAH(!)

im a failure in making decision.
pfft.

2009-01-21T14:37:00.009+08:00

i texted saurus yesterday saying that i miss him. and his reply was,
"im not feeling good right now. received a message saying that Yus passed away this morning."

YUSRY.
(pic taken with narissa)
20 january 2009. someone who left a great impact to us. he is extremely adorable in his actions and a great buddy. i know its hard for my brother to accept the fact that he's gone because they're bestfriend since they worked together. every weekend, once he'd booked out, he'll be meeting Yus until 4 or 5am. now? i just cant imagine it. Wani must be strong and move on. i cant imagine being in her position. they had been living with each other for a couple of years. And worst, they're getting engaged soon. the colleagues and i will be seeing her. i hope she's okay.

yesterday i cried infront of mamat. it takes time for me to cool down before telling him about the news. yea, he knows Yus. its so hard for me to believe it because he is cheerful as ever. but thats the fact of life doesnt it? we wont live for long.

Yusry, im gonna miss you terribly.
:''''''''''''''''''(

Al-Fatehah to you.

2009-01-20T01:07:00.002+08:00

im at BT right now, doing nothing.
today's flight was so relaxing.

Helmy texted me saying that Jujul misses me. only God knows how much i miss talking to that boy. his crappies and everything. whatever it is,
DO TAKE CARE YOU LITTLE RASCAL! :)

and to mamat:
well, i guess i have to endure missing you and such. work has been pretty bad for us doesnt it? it sucks big time. i hate it. no meet up for this two weeks then. grrrrrrr. gonna miss you sweetheart. :(

2009-01-19T11:14:00.007+08:00

i have work later on from 5pm to 2am. this slot is a permanent Budget Terminal slot. so yea, hari ni aku muke budget.

..........

oh! i promised to upload pictures right? so here it goes...
-6 January 2009-
he cut his hair few days before joining the CD. semangat pe abang aku ni. -13 January 2009-
the day we send ina to school.-14 January 2009-
met up with Bestie at TM around 5pm. headed down to Starbucks. Talk talk talk talk talk talk. Laugh laugh laugh laugh laugh. He treated me for dinner at Pizza Hut. make our way to AMK around 8pm. headed to mamat's place and chilled. nana: eh. we work at airport but never bump into each other ehk.
ali: a'ah sey. you at T1, i at T3.
nana: tapi macam susah gile nak meet up.
ali: true true.

now, look at my picture.
pipi aku da macam fishball.
and i cant be bothered about it.
^_^

2009-01-17T15:11:00.002+08:00

im currently at work now. just finish doing HongKong flight.
this is why i hate working in the afternoon, sumpah membosankan.
i have not eaten since morning because like i said, i slept like a pig when im belardy tired.
so i woke up and rush to work.

i'll be finishing around 8pm but since my last flight will be at 1630 and the flight will be departing around 1830, that will end my day.

:)

2009-01-16T23:20:00.002+08:00

work has been pretty hectic nowadays. and worst, when your mind is cramped up with stuffs. lets not mention about the the shift i've to work. next week will be so far the worst of all. boleh mampos oiiiii. tapi takpe, i get to meet different kinds of people everyday and every minute. :)
seriously, some may think that working in this line can ruined your confidence and you can easily lost your patience. well, its true but still its up to each individual in handling customer who needs help.

wait! why am i talking about my working life when i do still have my own life out here? terserlah-lah kebodohan aku. pfft.

firstly, as you can see, my blog has been neglected due to my super duper morning shift which leads me to tido macam babi once im home or at my bf's place in the afternoon. not only that, i can blog during my working time because we have our own laptop while at work BUT, yea, unfortunately there's a BUT, i spend my rocking chair moment in the transit area or at the OPS room doing zero things or at times talking to collegues or or or, sleeping. hah!!!! i guess my body is developing into Rikishi from the WWF or WWE or apape lah.

now, saurus has been posted to join the Civil Defence since the last two weeks. i admit, boredom strikes at home and i do miss him here and there. he's able to book out every friday after 5pm and have to be back by Sunday before 7pm. as his lovely babysister, i send him together with my parents for the first time at Jalan Bahar last week on Tuesday, 6 January 2009. hell! this date will forever be in my mind after all the vulgarities by someone given to me through messages. still, thanks though. i miss you so.

secondly, dearest ina has started her nursery year. she has to wear scarf and i swear she looks superrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr adorable. oh ya! since her mom was sicked, me and mamat was asked to send her to school last Tuesday, 13 January 2009. so i met up with the love around 0930 to accompany him for his reporting. we then headed to AMK Banquet for our brunch before taking a cab to Tampines. Ina was so happy upon hearing that we're sending her instead of her mom, kak radmah. :) after sending, we headed down to Mercu to take my JAE form. around 3pm, we went back to TM as mamat wants to get his pouch tapi itu anak last minute cakap taknak beli so i force him to shop with me at my favourite place; Fair Price. lol. i did spent my money buying some stuff for my parents and siblings and also, i bought my favourite maggie noodles!! haha.

mamat: huh???? kat sini???
nana: a'ah lah. you dont want to bring me somewhere else pe.
mamat: ok2. you are still you.
nana: ape cakap ni?
mamat: i mean, from last time you cant see Fair Price or NTUC or Shop n Save. comfirm nak masuk.
nana: oh... dabis? jom beli barang rumah kite.
mamat: our house? okay, jom.
nana: :)
mamat: sidetrack nampak..........

thats us.

readers, i know it gets redundant reading a post filled with words and only words right? blogger is being a bitch. i cant upload pictures at all. i promise the next post will be pictures and only pictures with little wordings alright? for now, just read if you want.

yesterday i went out with Mira to RP, NYP, NP and SP. she do her DAE in each poly including TP. she went to TP the other day with Farhan, Iman, Syariff and Amin but i was not free on that day so im not with the fun-bunch. her perserverance really touches my heart. i hope with that, she can get what she aims for.
i will always wish you best of luck baby!

results last Monday, 12 January 2009.
in my JAE form,
sp sp sp,
SINGAPORE POLYTECHNIC!!!!!
:)

2009-01-10T03:47:00.001+08:00

am currently at work.
.
.

.
and i swear,
im dozing off soon.
zZzzzZzz.

2008-12-24T16:47:00.003+08:00

it's a wet day today.
how nice if i were to get my lazy bones to bed and back to my lala-world.

working shift is hell.
but no doubt it was fun.
:)

im doing my OJT this week. hence,im following my mentor's shift. straight 3am to 12pm la oiiii. last Monday, 5pm to 2am shift felt like just 3hours of working. we went to T1 to check-in passenger to Jakarta. around 8pm, the group headed straight to Budget Terminal to check-in passenger to Cebu Pacific. seriously, BT was damn packed and i hate it.
oh.
i like to escort the elderly because i think they are very cute. heehs.
work later on and i force dad to send me instead. what a daughter sia.so goodnight people.
i have to go home now.

tag replies
mira: nanti aku off, aku text kau ehk.
liyanaezzaty: okay2. i'll check it out.
girlyy: erm. im not slim laa. ard 48kg and 1.6plus.

2008-12-20T19:01:00.000+08:00

mamat came over to my place for the first time to meet my family.
after 6 years of knowing each other ehk. lol. it was his first time meeting a girl's family la sey.

nana: seram ah..
mamat: relax. dont make me panic ah.
nana: you not scared ke?
mamat: the way you bahave make me scared tau.
nana: ok ok. relax.

everything went smoothly. family accepted him with a condition, we know our limits.
so....................
aku happy sekali!

around 7pm, my family, ina's family went to costa sand resort to celebrate helmy's birthday. afterwhich we make our way to changi beach infront of the safra to pancing.

headed home around 6am and dozed off.

2008-12-19T18:43:00.000+08:00

i spent the night with mamat by the beach.
it was our first time going to that kinda place as a couple.
so i admit, it was a lovely moment.
:)

-i sat and he cycled until the other side of the beach. i mean, nearby to the cargo.
-he sang while i make stupid noise.
-we stopped dead track when we saw three huge dogs coming our way.
-i make noise and he scolded me BECAUSE he was so afraid that he keeps on saying,
"da ayang. lets go. quick. lets go. we have to go. quick yang.."
-we cycled back to our place before going to the pancing place or whatever it is called.
-i talked none stop until he had to shut me up.
-we fight due to something.
-we kiss and we make up.

i love you sweetheart.

2008-12-18T18:23:00.001+08:00

first and foremost,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY HELMY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hope you'll have a fruitful life ahead. stay strong. best of luck in your endeavours. take a damnnnnn good care of your health okay. & dont marah marah always. cos i will get pissed and strangle you. for sure tau! so ya, happy watching M18 movies! :)

.......................

it was my second last day with the girls at work. i swear im gonna miss them. they are the one who makes the training a memorable one. and to you Donna, i will miss crapping with you, the laughing moment in the silence of the class and most, the 'whatever signs thinking'. (inside joke)

all in all,
happy working dear friends.
lets bump into each other. :)

2008-12-16T18:03:00.000+08:00

mira came down to meet me at work during my brunch time. and she was ultra suwwwwiiitttttttttttt sekali to bought for me some stuff for my birthday last september.
ouh yessss!
S.E.P.T.E.M.B.E.R. lol.

mira: eh, na.
nana: ape ni?
mira: hahahaahhahaahahahahahahahahaha. for your super belated bdae.
nana: hahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. sweet pe kau. thanks ehk. padahal da lame sey.
mira: tkpe ah. i still owe you pe.

sweet kan die? walaupun da december. lol.

THANKS BABE!
ily.

2008-12-15T17:39:00.004+08:00

met kechik during my lunch time at the departure hall before her flight to bangkok. after work was spent with the girl.
i went over to her place kerana aku rindu die yang tersangat.. i end the day with a blister.
-_-'

2008-12-05T19:22:00.003+08:00

happiness.

in life, we have to give and take.
in life, we have to forgive and forget.
in life, we have to learn how to appreciate.

our life is full of ups and downs. at times we feel really happy with our friends or family or love. then again, at times we feel really down and sad with our situation or own attitude. people might understand what or how we are feeling but the burden of it, no one would be able to carry it. mistake are meant to teach us a useful lesson(s). we have to learn from it rather than to keep on repeating it again and again. solutions to what we are facing is everywhere. every problems can be solved in a good way. the only largest problem is when we ignore our God. therefore, im thankful that i do and still think of Him.

2008-12-03T18:47:00.005+08:00

work work work.i have to drag my ass up early in the morning to work and will only reached home after 10pm. i miss spending time with my family, gfs, babies, saurus, helmy(yesyes. YOU, crazy!)AND ina. on the other hand, training at cargo is good. thank God i've gotten the group that i want because i heard the other group in Swissport was so disorganised and i seriously pity Ika.
"im all alone sey. no one talked to me. dorang semua ngan buddies dorang."
kesian kan? nvm lah ika. being patience is the best. im sure you will find a bunch of new friends that would appreciate you once you start your OJT.
........
now, you might not want to know what they are doing to their uniform. heh. by the way, im totally not available on weekdays because of my working schedule. so those who texted me out, we meet up on weekends okay girls? miss korang tersangat banyak! :(
exemption: mira sweetheart! yours will be this friday or saturday ehk. rindu kau!

i went online with luqman and i swear i miss that badot belardy much.
thanks for your advice. i really appreciate it. i'll see you at any terminals then. :)
and for his friend, Helmy.
take good care of yourself okay? im just being concern. sorry about last monday. i was so tired so i decided to follow my parents home after visiting you forawhile. sorry ye. well, jangan stretch banyak2 bcos it may tear off the stiches. take care! :)

okay people! i've got homeworks to do. gotta learn about flights, checking the customer's passport and forgery detection. also, im having 3 other test real soon. i'll blog when im free or something. oh yah! i owed mama $40.70 for my new court shoe. that sucks though.
picture- after visiting helmy at sgh. we headed to tampines to get my shoe.thanks la btw.

tags replies
joanne: we'll see each othe soon sweetheart.
ain: lol. now, thats the bitch huh? hahah. we'll go karaoke when im free babe.
liyanaezzaty: yes darling. i got it. :)
mira: hahah. some of them are not cust svs la. they have to renew their pass and so they got to attend the orientation. yup, see you soon.
shanaz: thanks sweets! :)

ps:
i passed my announcement test! 100% !!
:)
goodnight world.

2008-11-29T22:00:00.002+08:00

IM A FUCKING BITCH!
period.

i was happy that i read one of your email from your ex-bestfriend. she's right. absolutely right. you're going to be 18 and you are matured enough to think. THINK! i dont wish to keep hurting you. she said, i have been pulling you away from your friends. even her, your bestfriend for nearly 6 yrs. i've known you only for months. you should listen to them. im an asshole get it? wait no more please. go back to them. i dont fucking need you. even if i quarrel with mamat, you dont need to be there. i had enough of shits from your bestfriend, or ex-bestfriend. whatever it is. she's fucking saying the truth about me. im a bitch so move on. im not the only girl God had created in this world. there's more out there. you have someone who wants to be with you till death. move on please. i just cant believed that you hide it behind me,seriously. im bad in the eyes of your friends. please, i beg you. forget about me.

and to your bestfriend,
THANKS!

2008-11-28T21:01:00.003+08:00

i just came back from the long hours of working. it was fun although we had to move from Terminal 1 to Terminal 2 to Terminal 3 and back to Terminal 1 and then lastly, the office.

seriously, im tired. but my eyes simply cant get off from this lappy. now i guess that's the reason of me having panda eyes. -_-"

i was posted to do Jetstar whereas Yaya was posted to do the Swisport. But since some of the girls wants to stick with their buddies, Yaya managed to talk to our supervisor, Rahim, to rearrange the grouping. so now, Yaya and i together with Donna are in the same group. happy happy happyyyyyyyyyy! :)
okay, im crapping here. i need to go to my wonderland world pasal mate aku da steamy-steamy.
goodnight world.

2008-11-27T15:10:00.003+08:00

Facebook = :)
am currently doing some quizzes in Facebook. it was kinda hilarious lah reading what or who i am. lol.

Little Miss Normality

Like any girl you love a good bitch. But you have to have a good reason to bitch and you always feel a little bad afterwards. You can always justify your bitchiness. You've got the balance just right =)

im thinking of going to mamat's place now. but with the laptop right infront of my face, i've been dragging the time. woke up around 8am and i've yet to bath. yes, just look at the time. okay thats it, youtube time.

2008-11-26T21:35:00.011+08:00

Marina Barrage,
was awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i dont think there's a need for me to say anything about the place.
pictures will do everything.

bumped into Helmy's cute little cousin.

2008-11-25T22:01:00.003+08:00

today was my 25th monthsaries with mamat.
ouh yessss,
25th on the 25th.
:)
thanks for the gift. its nice, i love it.
Happy 2yrs 1 month! <3>

we fought for several days. we contact each other just for the sake of knowing that we are in a r'ship, because we are ego. and it happens for several days. i know i have been pissing you off just because of a silly minor thing. i know you tried like hell consoling me. i know you dont want us to keep on quarrelling. i know you hate me coming home at night. likewise for you. you know i hate it when you talked to me in that tone. you know i hate it when you forced me to follow your way. but whatever it is, we never failed to talked things out and find a solution to what we're facing. except for this ........
seriously, i miss you so much.

back then,my red-hair boyfriend.

2008-11-23T20:51:00.002+08:00

we're just different.
we seems to be still new in this relationship.
we are not like how we used to be.

it sucks big time.
i miss you mamat.
:(

2008-11-22T01:31:00.000+08:00

its the orientation day.
im supposed to meet baria, whom i called yaya, at 8.45am because thats the time we have to report. but due to my terhegeh-hegeh, i reached around 9.15am. i was being placed in a group of elderly people. so yeah~~~~~~~ paham paham uh. but luckily there was Amy who is also 18 years old. we had fun though. fighting the coldness, playing Amazing Race in T2 and T3, the ball game, the mingle-mingle game and more. pictures below were taken for the Amazing Race purpose.

the orientation ends at 5pm after which i make my move to meet mama, along, kak radmah and my little lovable ina. we had our dinner at CS while waiting for dad. as usual, i bring ina to Kiddy Palace and as usual too, the girl goes tralalalalalala.

i have to go to the airport again on Monday to get my airport pass & my uniform. i hope i wont start on Tuesday because its mama's birthday & also, my 25th monthsary with the love.
eh! but wait! i wanna work asap.
im broke. totally broke.
:(

2008-11-20T19:33:00.004+08:00

went out with Saurus and his collegues: Ernie, Narissa, Yusri and his girlfriend, Sahrul and Siti. mamat tagged along so its his first time meeting my brother. we chilled at Open Plaza while waiting for Sahrul, the shy boy, for more than 3 hours. macam nak tumbuk jer itu budak tau! but hell yeah, we had fun despite the long hours of waiting. brother, ernie and narissa played their cards while me & mamat camwhore and at the same time trying our best to stay awake. saurus: eh. mamat is very nice. soft spoken ehk?
nana: huh?! soft spoken? baru baru jer ah. da lame comfirm out spoken.
........
mamat: ayg. your brother nice sey. tapi soft spoken ehk?
nana: huh?! soft spoken? ape nie korang.

contradict pe ni dua lelaki. lol. X0X0X0

2008-11-19T18:55:00.004+08:00

I GOT THE JOB!!!!!!!!
:)

2nd interview was not as how i expected. it was a tough one indeed. there was 30 people in the conference room, including me. we are to be presentable in introducing ourself to the 3 interviewer infront of the rest. at first i thought the chances of me getting the job was very slim because handful of them looks professional. just because they have 9 to 10 years of experience working under customer service. but crap, im wrong. they did not get it as the remarks says that they're over-confident and arrogant. so yeah, only 10 of us out of the rest passed. :)

well, i would like to thank Saurus for accompanying me for approximately 3 hours to the interview. terima kasih ye abangku!

ps:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAMBOO!!!!

sayang deh sama kamu.

2008-11-18T19:36:00.003+08:00

back then.

we went out.
we quarrelled.
it was really BAD.
and worst, i found something, by myself.
it hurts.
yes it is.
i hate you for yesterday.

on the other hand, i received a call from Goldin. :) that cheers me up. I've to go for my 2nd interview tomorrow at 0930 at T1. so i might drag saurus along for accompany. ICC2 is calling me back but i dont intend to work there anymore. oh, its history la.

my girls texted me to join them to Powerhouse. i wanna go but bf is stopping me. so i decided to go out with Syarif this coming Saturday and join my juniors in their Sec1 barbeque in school. plus, i miss them giler babi and i wanna see the little new cute sec ones.

till then. i wanna go home now.

2008-11-13T21:30:00.002+08:00

-my huge bf's shirt-

blogged. again for today.
im currently chatting with a guy who keeps on asking about my relationship. worst thing, i dont even know him. lol. it has been awhile since i login to msn. i think that explains why i accepted them who added me and end up not knowing any.

Mircon's the way to go! says:
anyways,hw long hv u been with yr guy?
farhanah says:
2 yrs plus..
Mircon's the way to go! says:
so when nak settle dwn?
farhanah says:
huh??
Mircon's the way to go! says:
da slow balik pulak
Mircon's the way to go! says:
haha
Mircon's the way to go! says:
u nak settle dwn
farhanah says:
HAHA.
farhanah says:
settle dwn?
Mircon's the way to go! says:
omg!
farhanah says:
lol
Mircon's the way to go! says:
tunang
Mircon's the way to go! says:
kawin
farhanah says:
tunang??
farhanah says:
kawin???????
farhanah says:
gosh!~
Mircon's the way to go! says:
oh give me abreak
farhanah says:
lol
farhanah says:
lol
farhanah says:
lol
farhanah says:
tu nanti dulu ah.
Mircon's the way to go! says:
so is he the one?
farhanah says:
erm. idk.
farhanah says:
why?
Mircon's the way to go! says:
idk??? u can talk in indon nw??
Mircon's the way to go! says:
lol
farhanah says:
i dont know laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.
Mircon's the way to go! says:
marah lak
Mircon's the way to go! says:
pilik la this one
now, see what i mean?

on a slight note, i bumped into Shida and have a mini catched up with her.
Shida, if you were read this, i want you to know that you're full of craps. and i love it.

shida: nana, i want to tell you something ah.
nana: ape die?
shida: two times already tau i saw this group of girls reading your blog. i bet you dont even know them.
nana: really? chinese or malay?
shida: both ah. extra 2 indians.
nana: wah. multi racial ey.
shida: a'ah. thats why in school they're known as MRG.
nana: whats that?
shida: Multi Racial Girls.
nana: hah?! crap sia kau.
this is my friend.

.....................
oh! bf is sweet. he showed me his hp with my picture as his wallpaper. just because we have not been seeing each other for the past 5 days. and yeah! i like to debate with him. his voice is my lullaby. lol.

2008-11-13T12:03:00.002+08:00

yesssssssssssssssa!
meeting Love today.

last minute dok.
:)

2008-11-12T16:00:00.019+08:00

am back!
*ehem, i didnt know that nana is still here. i think you're such an asshole. really. PERIOD.*

well, exams are over(!) jadi favour takmo tanye how was it or whatever pasal aku tak suke. okay da.

10102008.
graduated from MERCU PTE SCH. hell yeah, at long last. i was feeling jiwang-jiwang on this day actually. almaklumlahhhhh, gonna miss the teachers & some of my other friends. it was a memorable journey with each and every one of them. how we got to know each other, how we play tricks on the teachers, how we just walked in the class although we're absolutely, i mean serious absolutely late, and many many more. it was indeed something i wont forget. :(
FRIENDS & TEACHERS, I MISS YOU GUYS.
11102008.
went out with mamat's family for Hari Raya celebration. it was fun despite the blister wearing the high heels. i admit it was my first time wearing kakak's heels because she has to carry Aisy here and there. so i decided to exchange with her. with that, i hold on to mamat wherever he go, except once we're in his cousin's house. hari itu aku mempunyai nasib yang baik kerana aku tidak jatuh macam nangka busok. amaciam?? can get at least a B for Malay tak?? hell NOOOOOO. sorry kak seri, i steal 2 pics from your blog. outdated, but oh, sorry gorgeous!

13102008.
my family spend a day at my uncle's place. da bukan macam hari raye oi.i went there with jeans & 3/4 sleeve shirt after meeting mamat. i have something to tell you people about my uncle and aunt. i called them mama & baba because they're the one who took care of me when i was a child. i love them alot. never once they shouted at me. frankly, even my other brothers got jealous of me especially during hari raya season. reason? i got wayyyyyyyyyyyy much than them. get it? but i assumed they're matured enough to ignore and not being a sissy. :)

16102008.
guess whatttttttt!!! its my dearest rascal birthday.
HAPPY SUPER BELATED BIRTHDAY KIA SATINA!!!
kakak love you like belardy banyak lah..black clouds. she fall really sick on this day. i remembered how we rushed to Sengkang Polyclinic and cabot in between to eat at Ya Kun because our stomach were seriously grumbling. credits to Sengkang poly because it was so far the fastest i'd ever went to. sape sape sakit, go there. aku promote.around 2+, i went over to mamat's crib. it was actually not for fun thingy but i went for a purpose - to sort things out NOT because of Helmy but something else. we had a long conversation over it and wfter some .......... we're back to normal.

bf: takmu gado2 lagi ah. tak sanggup sey.
nana: why? fun pe gado2.
bf: no lah! tak sanggup tak sanggup. 12 jam you layan i macam nak taknak gitu. taknak ah. tak sanggup, seriously.
nana: hahahahahahaha. lain kali lame sikit okay?
bf: -________-

17102008.
went out to Marina with dearest girlfriend liyana. headed to esplanade library and studied maths.yana: nananananana! that guy cute ah.
nana: mane? yang tu?
yana: no. the other one.
nana: eeuuwwww. tak ah.
10 minutes.
nana: eh. can ah. cute jugak.
yana: i told you!

23102008.
1st brother, along, was admitted to SGH. he has to go for an operation at his left knee due to muscle ape ntah during his NS. that was wayyyyyy back sey. it was a funny story on how the doctors operated him but i just couldnt share with you guys. because it can drop his water face. what a sister if i decided to blurt it out here.
07-09112008.
slept over at kak radmah's house. i swear i can get lost if i were to ever go there by myself though its at Tampines. its located somewhere near the JCs at block 400+. eventhough singapore is small, i could get lost EASILY. tak tipu.

10-today.
mamat is busy working. we have not been meeting. i have no idea how my babies are. neither bout my gfs. i do miss them alot. im rotting at home, watching dvds after dvds, sleeping, eating, sleeping, eating. i can feel that im getting bigger horizontally because i have been munching on titbits. today supposingly, ain, her sister, 2 other frens, mira and i were to meet up for sentosa outing. but due to me being totally broke, that explains why i am here seating infront of the lappy blogging my ass off. its not that im a frickin lazy girl that does not wants to find a job. BUT, im waiting for the call somewhere this week. thats it.

random.
saurus will be joining the CD next year in January. i will miss him definitely :(>
P.S
Love, i miss you so much.

2008-10-27T20:05:00.005+08:00

am currently in mira's crib.
out intention was to study but nevermind, forget it.

lots of pics and things came up since i last neglected this blog, i know.
i'll update about the events and all once im really free after my major exams.

p.s english p1 was easy but not p2.
geog paper was easy except for the map reading. i didnt study for WRC and darrrmn it came out. but i managed to answer the questions for tourism (which i was absolutely happy that i'd studied), ecotourism and oil palm cultivation.
maths p1 was easy.

2 more papers to gooooooooooooooo(!)

2008-10-06T15:27:00.003+08:00

im cutting down my meet ups, calls and sms-es with Love because i have to study.

and its until November.
):

oh baby, shut me up please.

2008-10-04T15:32:00.002+08:00

exams is around the corner.
will be extreme busy.
study time.
toodles.
:)

2008-09-30T18:36:00.004+08:00

its Hari Raya Eve today & im bloody excited for tomorrow.
bcos,
someone's gonna drive our Suzuki SX4!!!
happening or what!!
:)

2nd & 3rd brother will be working tomorrow and i hate it,i swear.

on the other hand, saurus gave me a super belated birthday gift.
TENDER KISS.

sayang dong abang gue.

ouh. Love and I chose to wear black this year.
& im looking forward to see him wearing baju kurung.
^_^

.........
i've had enough with shits pouring in my tagboard. i just simply cant be bothered with the hatetagger. instructing me to write my motive? wtf. who the hell is she to instruct me? silly silly silly. love wants me to ignore and im sticking to that. moreover, its a childish matter. hahahah. kekek ah lu. gado through tagging makes me tralalala la oi. hahahahah. but i feel blessed as i know someone is faithfully reading my blog & is interested indeed in my absolutely beautiful life.
oh nana, you make me feel princessy.
thanks.
hahah.

now lets see how far she can go.

random:
SELAMAT HARI RAYA TO ALL MALAYS!
enjoy.

2008-09-25T13:11:00.002+08:00

my oh my.
------nana------
OH YES! I KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

well, first thing first, wana and me are in good belardy condition. eh wait! she dont like people calling her wana but sasha instead. okay? what'd happened back then was wayyyyyyyyy past & you wanna bring it back just to make other readers in here know my fucken true colours in the year 2003? damn pathetic life you're heading. whatever happened has a reason behind it. me & sasha has talked things out somewhere in secondary two. you are not a single bit invited during that talked so dont dump anything here. my life now is way different than last time. dont be eager or whatever your motive is, to ruined anything here. especially about my life. who the hell are you to determine someone's attitude or wtv? tell me all the good deeds that you'd done back then. oh nana, dont lie that you're actually jealous about me befriended with anyone & to have a clear cut, good life. you're childish since last time do you know that? go figure okay. i thought you are matured enough to ignore all this but hey(!) here you are talking back about me & sasha. hahaha. a huge great BOO to your face lah ey.

well nana, say wtv you want okay. do you realised that no one in here has been knocking on the same door as you? In fact, they are knocking back at ur door. every single one of them. its a waste effort cos childish & fickle-minded girl like you will never go far. instead, you will just end up tripped and may probably never even get back up.

so dear nana,

GET A FUCKING MATURE LIFE.

toodles.

2008-09-23T17:40:00.018+08:00

wow!!!!!!!!!!!
i cant believe it that after a week of not updating my blog,the tagboard was full of craps from that dearest NANA.
lets put that aside cos i have lotsssssss to tell you about the fun memorable cherisable exciting 3 consecutive days i had with my bunch of loves. :)

19092008
a suprised night advanced celebration at Singapore Flyer.
20092008
meet darjat in the afternoon.
break fast with the girlfriends at BK at Wheelocks.
head to Taka's Garden. chilled at the swimming pool at Wisma.

THANKS GIRLS FOR THE DELICIOUS SECRET RECIPE CAKE & THE RED HAWT FLOWER. i love you two.

21092008
celebrate in the morning with my family.
headed to darjat's crib & chilled.

.............................

2008-09-16T18:07:00.001+08:00

yesterday was a day to remember.
i swear its a day i wont forget.
-15092008.

i managed to talk things through with Helmy, explaining to him my situation & what im facing now. we are friends and yessssss! FRIENDS.
i didnt know that the pictures i had posted recently gave some readers a bad impression. (lets not blurt out any names.) i didnt know some readers thought that i'd not been meeting Darjat since he came out & that i spent most of my busy time with Helmy. i didnt know that pictures i took at home with both of them, Helmy & Ina, gave a controversy of us looking like a family. in other word, 'mesra'. i didnt know & i swear it was something far from my mind. i admit its partially my fault. i talked to kakak ytd & yeah, she knocked some sense in me. i know, its my fault. but c'mon, picture tells a thousand words. i have no intention to act like i have my own family. i want to clear all this. im having a hectic moment with Darjat now. i dont wish to drag this matter. Darjat wants me to give him some time to cool down. Its not easy, i know after so long of not seeing each other. i know its hard for him and therefore, im doing what he asked.

at the moment right now, i didnt know whats my status. its not that we're not in a relationship. gosh, its complicated. never came across in my mind that i am actually facing this kind of situation. having misunderstanding with him is the last thing i ever want to have or experience. i just hope that everything will be back as per normal between me & Darjat.

DARJAT, IM SORRY.
i'll accept any decision you make.
its all up to you.

btw, thanks for being understanding & a listening ear.

on the other hand, to nana the tagger.
get my name correct before dumping your shits here.
but hey, you're still welcome though.
:)

ps: Darjat wants me to ignore. ermmmmmmmmmmmmm ..

2008-09-09T14:36:00.005+08:00

03092008.
besssssssst!!

matters have been super complicated this few days.
prelims is part of it i supposed.
i wanna have a breakkkkkkk!

on the other hand, mamat's out(!)
oh yes, suprised kan?! i thought of fetching him once he's been released but then, i swear i have no idea that he's coming out on that particular day. so yeah,the sis called up & ...

assalamualaikum.
nana: wa'alaikumsalam. sape tu?
eh, tak kenal?
nana: darjat ehk?
ah..tau pun.
nana: darjat!!!!!! hello!!!! where u? i miss you so much. *sobs*
me too dear. abe tak tau nak jumpe i?
nana: nak!!! im at home. later i dtg rumah ehk.
ok dear.
blablablablabla. ni part tak perlu tahu lah ehk.
*peace*

first look, i feel like im with a stranger but yeah, it takes time right?
mamat has totally changed in the sense of physical appearance & mental. & im loving it. no lies in that statement okay. i feel different when im with him cos he's not like last time. i mean, he's more relax, understanding & yeah, never once did he scold me. not even last time actually. yesterday, i went over to his crib and after breaking our fast together, we talked about the past until our conversation stopped tracked on some recent matter. i was ultimately shocked upon hearing what actually was in his mind after reading a message i received. we then have a kind of serious communication until i decided to make my way home around 9pm.

IM SORRY DARJAT.
IM TRUELY SORRY.

2008-09-01T10:49:00.003+08:00

i've been reaching home way past 12am lately.
it gets eerie at times but im lucky to have parents that's willing to fetch me anywhere i am.
thanks mama & baba! :)

oh yeah~
HAPPY FASTING MONTH TO ALL MUSLIM(S).
i remembered when the first time i tried to fast like the rest. its very frustrating lah. since i'd to endure, i packed myself with drawings and drawings and drawings. time flies when i sticked to my passion. but oh, never once i tried to take a sip of drink or anything. takot lah.. if me or any of my brothers were to ever do that & were to get caught by dad, we're totally dead. strict orang tua tu. lol.

last saturday, i visited my best grandmother at Tampines. tremendous change in her i tell you. she can walk without getting any help from anyone & she could even go to Geylang alone. bagus kan? aku sayangggggg die!
my favourite......................
yesterday i went to helmy's crib together with Shahid. around 9pm, mama fetched us and we headed to Geylang to buy food for Sahur. my oh my! it was already packed even before fasting month starts. the wetness, the sights and more was ermmm, how should i describe it? urgh, no comment!
advice: DONT GO WHEN THE RAIN ENDS.it marked 1st September today so,
HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!
& wait,
HAPPY 21th BIRTHDAY HELMY'S SISTER!!

ps: i have no idea when's darjat coming out.

so pleaseee, dont bother asking me.

2008-08-29T17:11:00.006+08:00

child.

One to one study with Mr Hamdan was great. we laughed like there's no tomorrow. lol.
i rushed to class at around 10+am finding nobody was there. empty, ZERO.
pathetic kan aku? Mira decided not to come as she was already late though i did woke her up at 7.30am. itu anak ehk! haha. syaz, iman, farhan & shariff came ard 11 i think. we studied locus & somehow i find it much more easier to understand. class ends at 12 and since i have to collect some ws, syaz kindly accompanied me. here comes the fun part.

it started with kak zai wanting syaz to doll her up. daripada situ,it leads to ms seri coming up to us to help her in what she should wear for today's dinner. Teachers Day lah katekan..

dress code: Dressed like their favourite artist.

cute kan? we browse through some female hawwwwtt artist and came out with stupid silly ideas of how to present it. around 2, me and syaz accompanied ms seri to geylang to find some clothes. going out with her was ultrafun! we decided to transform her to Mandy Moore.its something like that lah ey. kite tak macam student ngan cikgu lah oi. i went off at 4 and make my way to bedok to visit helmy.

Helmy!!! cepat cepat baik!!! must go back to school okay? & lets go out together one day! you owe me a movie remember? you broke it, im gonna strangle you & you know what does that means. hahaha. quick quick!

oh. did i mentioned about having breakfast at LJS recently? sumpah its my first time. outdated pe aku.
the delicious bread. minus away the smelly cheese please.a strict conversation about whats happening. oh ya! zuhaili was in the news last saturday,23rd august.
REMAJA LANCAR PROJEK KUMPUL MAKANAN UNTUK ORANG MISKIN.im happy for him lah.
this is what he wants. he's really moving on & had totally forget abt the past; gf & sins. he has found a new one & i hope they're happy as ever. tweehee.
bestie = :)

2008-08-23T13:34:00.003+08:00

im babysitting Ina & Shahid today but
i feel like im babysitting millions of elephants.
tak bedek tak bedek.

although this two brats are cute enough to help me out with the chores, they're still getting on my nerves. smackdown sane smackdown sini. boleh pengsan aku.
=_='

a week more before September comes in.
& so i guess i'll be seeing darjat again.

2008-08-22T17:39:00.004+08:00

-negative-

English Oral had just ended.
relieve lah oiiiiii!
i managed to talk about the picture discussion & also the conversation. it was exactly the same question like my MT oral; what's my favourite subject. so yeah, i talked about Art, definitely.

Special thanks to Syaz for teaching me & giving me tactics on pic discussion.
Special thanks to Helmy for supports & also tactics in conversation.

i didnt attend yana's sis's wedding due to last minute spring cleaning of my house with dad. hell yeah! he cleaned up the mess in my room. thank you!!!! :)
sumpah da bersih sekarang, aku suke~~
on the other hand, bet i missed the fun at AMK. dammit!!
SORRY LIYANAEZZATY!!
we makeup & kiss other day ok?
boo.

my school is organising BBQ at ecp today but once again, DAMMMITTTTTTTTTTTT!!!, im not allowed to go. sebabnye? aku baru baik. all this was due bcos ytd my gastric & cramps attacked once again. so i called up mama to fetch me from school. tu lah pasal aku tak bleh pegi. :(

.......
abg nasir wants to sell off his new helmet. tak tau apasal but any buyers? .......
somehow, i feel like we're becoming distanced. maybe bcos u're busy with the situation u're in now & me, mine. still, im glad that we are messaging each other of what is happening around us. but just so u know,
Mira..i miss u belardy much.

lala, dada & mira. evening cycling at ecp next week? amaciam???
& ain, mira. sentosa outing againnnnn? amaciam??????
........
last Tuesday, after IRW class, mama & baba fetched me from school since i complaint that there's a lot of ban___ in 51 esp when it strikes after 9pm. suprisingly, Ina was there & i'll be babysitting her from Monday to Friday starting from now. happy sekali!!
i had extremely fun camwhoring with this small rascal in dad's car but i think this is the nicest. sumpah die suke camera. tags replied:
fatin: imy too!!! tc ehk. :)
zu: linked bestie! hope u're doing well. send my warmest regards to ur mom.
mariam: kak, im fine. thx btw. meet up soon okay?
lea: eh mane ade. still fresh in my mind okay!
tingting: hey! me too!!! be a gd SL okay? lead them well.
tumpang lalu: syazzzzzzzzz!! HELLO!
specially to,
rach: hey!!!! i replied!!!! hahahahaha.

2008-08-15T18:09:00.002+08:00

im effing tired helping mama with the chores.
i wanna have a good rest but im going out later at night.
tired lah oi.

i'd been discharged from SGH last Tuesday around 2pm. A week of MC can be really frustrating at times. i missed alot in school & i wondered how they're doing. Ms Seri & Mr Hamdan were super niceeeeeeeeee. They called up checking on me. Caring lah cikgu-cikgu aku ni. aku sukee~~ lol.

Now, Helmy is currently in hospital for his chemotherapy. aku kluar die masok. bagus lah tuuuuuuu. -__-"" i hope everything goes well for him. Parents have been persuading me to bring them to visit Helmy. maybe tonight or sunday or tengok lah.
cant be denied that i do miss Helmy. da lame tak jumpe lah oi.

September is coming real soon. which means its fasting month, O level coming & someone! gahhhh!!!! schedule cramped!

oh. i can hear mama's shouting at me to mandi. gtg.
toodles. :)

2008-08-12T10:46:00.003+08:00

im bored.
im rotting.

i just went for an ultrasound. my conversation with the specialist was the best part despite the cramps im facing during the whole procedure. credits and many applause to the nurses here lah okay.
i think SGH is the best of all. :)

a random story-
a mom: kau tgk tu, muda muda lagi dah mengandung.
daughter looked at me.
daughter: mcm mane mak tahu?
mom looked at me from top to bottom.
mom: mestilah. kalau tak, tak kan die dtg tmpt scanning ni. ni kan tempat pompan mengandung.
daughter: a'ah. tengok lah muke. comfirm shortgun.

i turned and walked away to seat at the wheelchair. when my name has been called, MISS NOORFARHANAH, both of them looked at each other with a stunning face, turned to me and i gave them a smiling face.

i guess peple out there is judging a person by their looks huh.

My favourites gave me a suprise visit yesterday and that was muchly appreciated.Thanks Mira for the donut. lol.
& lala together with dada for the laughters.
aku sayang korang!

i hope i can be discharged by today or tomorrow. i miss my school & i wanna meet kakak. rindu sangat!!!!!

2008-08-11T09:58:00.006+08:00

im currently in hospital.
-bloatedness,gastric pain & difficulties in breathing.
-_-"

things is becoming complicated at home. me & mama have yet to make any solution to what had happened. along & saurus are busy working so lets put them aside. on the other hand, my bond with mama is getting stronger. :) dad? he still have no idea about the problems we're facing. And we've planned to stick to that.

...........
tomorrow will be the first time, im unable to attend the IRW class. and thus i am going to miss the funs with them.
my favourite girls.my favourite sweetheart.oh! talking about this girl, she has a habit of clipping her nails in class and the nails will FLY all over the place. *peace*

im looking forward for this coming 17th. gonna meet my rascals who had been invited to attend yana's sister's wedding. excited bangattttttttt!
.............

back to hospital. boredom strikes and thats normal i assumed. i'd went for x-ray, scanning & soon will be scoping. a specialist will be coming over to attend to me. i hope nothing will happen cos i desperately wants to get out of this god damn place. my oh my. i wonder how Helmy spent his 9 months rotting in hospital. hmmm...
ok ok. drama mama sungguh aku ni.

sidetrack-
i miss this little brat so belardy much lah :( [ i would like to make a public apology to kakak. my mom is very secretive esp when she's handling 2 problems at one time. hence my days in hospital is exactly like living in a cell. family is the main visitor. nobody else knows abt me except for teachers. i really hope you would understand. once again, im sorry. ]

thats it.

hospital bed makes me sleepy.
good day everyone.
ZzzzZZzz.

2008-08-08T21:14:00.003+08:00

yeah!
internet's done.
now i can update as longggggggg as i can.
And to add on that, its kind of a good thing that saurus is working.
tweehee. :)

i received a msg from Cik Ani early this morning telling me that its Fadzil's birthday today. ouuuuh yes, his mom reminds me about it.
so,
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY FADZIL!!!!!!!!!!!!
its nice to know you btw.

i cant upload pictures cos blogger is being such a bitch at this moment. the worst thing is that, my hp is slacking due to lack of space. -_-
so yea, here goes one of it. now its just 9.19pm but im already feeling sleepy.
tired tired tired helping mama with the chores.
i'll blog tomorrow OR Sunday.

on a slight note:
THANK YOU HELMY FOR HELPING.
&
THANK YOU KAKAK FOR BEING A GOOD LISTENER.

And to the taggers:
yes yes! im back!!!!!!!!!!
happy reading.

2008-07-30T14:47:00.010+08:00

booya!!!!!!
:)

i miss updating. yesssss,thats for sure.
i miss my girlfriends and my arts.
oh,
i miss everyone.
i miss everything.

i've been wanting to blog since 571627151623 but due to sticking with NO more procrastination, i'd been busy with school; attending intensive classes after school, homeworks that's never ending, self revision at home till night, meet ups with Helmy to have abit of 'lectures' about Maths & attending IRW classes at night till 9.30pm. now i guess you can roughly see the reason why im not spending my time with both sides family, Yana(s), bitches and rascals. :(

aku rindu korang!

study-babies <3picture captured by Mira's TREMBLE hand. saurus had started working at ICC1 and i kinda missed him every now and then.dont asked about the other 2 older & 1 younger retards at home - minus them away please. im thinking of working at ICC1 too, after my Os and after being psycho by ketiga-tiga abang aku, tapi.......... i like working with Cik Ani who has taught me many things, in working though. to add on that, im used to working there despite hearing the bebelan of nyonyas. lol.

oh! i received Service Award on 15th July under Military Band. so yeah, i had to travel back to Deyi Secondary School to received my award infront of the whole school. heehs. met up with dear Kechik before heading to school. adorable lah itu anak!
but one thing for sure, she's a failure in capturing a picture with me. damn. pfft! wait wait! afters was LC at Bedok North Sec. no faith as it was raining heavily & its kind of difficult for us in the class to hear whats the passage abt, especially with the thunder BOM sane BOM sini.

random-
liyanaezzaty : nana!!!! update your blog leyyyy. same jer tau!
nana: okay soon. *peace*
-convo on 15th July.

now, do you get what im trying to say?? if not then takpelah. -_-'

on the 22nd July, Ms Seri kindly bring the whole class to the neWater centre. yeah,it was fairly okayyyyy but the camwhore session with whole lots of them makes the 'learning journey' awesome la! :)

Half of Class Two.half of my babygirls with ms seri in the orange shirt.btw, i decided to set my blog to public once again. cos i feel awkward when people asked me of why they cant read my blog. the reason is very simple, dad told me that one of my aunt read it and.......gahhhh!!! speechless.
her behaviour is funneh AND silly.
thats it. gtg. study time.

2008-07-12T16:45:00.005+08:00

my internet connection has been cut down due to some shits happening at home.
so that clearly explains why im quiet here.
due to this, i personally forced Helmy, that annoying yet sweet brat, to lend me his laptop for just a day.
kesian eh? :(:(
tapi terima kaseh banyak banyak Helmyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!! :)

Mt oral goes well except for the last part of the conversation whereby i screwed up some bahasa baku. i even spoke an english word.
AND the word is Certificate. -_-'

oh hell yeah~~
i went out with my beloved Drama Queen on the 28062008.

we went to Escapes as she had 4 free tixs. to make that particular day more fun, Fifiq & Helmy tag along. Moreover, this two macho-idiots are scared of heights!! mane tak happening kan!!

...............
my 50 bucks after kendarat had flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy within a week. so yeah,im cashless once again.
random: lepak session with Amirah Sweetheart. <3

see? she lovessssss taking her own pictures using my hp.
cute lah ini anak.

wait wait!! this coming 15th, im going back to Deyi Sec to attend the Prize Giving Ceremony. yessssss,i'll be receiving my Service Award under Military Band. aku suke sekali~~ & to add on that, im excited to meet my girlfriends!

oh the Yana(s), i miss you girls.
:'(

2008-06-26T09:50:00.002+08:00

baby, you're gone far away.
i miss you so much.

just so you know.

2008-06-24T20:41:00.005+08:00

11 more days to 5th of July.
aku excited banget!!!!!
:)

i went out to meet Helmy yesterday. That botak tapi tak licin guy can annoys you whenever he's bored. we met up at the usual place around 1630 and have our early dinner. Since im a demanding girl,as what saurus had mentioned before,
-my babysister is a real hardass. she keeps to what she said.-,
i force Helmy to bring me to Food Culture cos i am longing to eat my Tom Yam Noodle. Sedap sekali lah sey. :)
kan kan,betol kan ape aku cakap?
annoying kan ini budak.
amek gambar aku bile tengah makan.
sikit takpe, belambak pulak tuuuuu.
pfft. :]
.......
dear boyfriend.
i know its difficult for us to trust one another when we're apart. its hard for me too especially when we have no idea of what we're doing every second. im sorry for what had happened. its my fault and i admit it. i shouldnt behave in that kind of manner be it through writing or not replying to you. i am really sorry. you can punished me when we meet real soon okay? i love you dear. <3

2008-06-23T11:59:00.003+08:00

i think i look horrible.
no no,correction.
i admit i look horrible.
yucks~

someone says i should put on make up often.
another says i should dress up more often.
the other one says i should stick being natural.
and lastly i say i should be myself.

a week more to enjoy before going back to school. dammit. MT O level is on 8th of July and yesssss,3 more weeks sahaja. i have to talk in malay until my oral ends. sebab sesi komunikasi di antara saya dan guru sungguh tidak bagus. bahasa baku harus dibicarakan mulai dari sekarang supaya perbualan saya akan bertambah lancar. ~eyerr~
MT LC will be on 15th of July and before that, sumpah aku kene korek ini telinga sedalam dalamnye. Lol. the rest of the paper will consume in October & November. Also, i'll be seating for my exam at Bedok North Secondary School. :)

talking about exams, i'd gotten my results for my mid-yr.
B4 for English,
B3 for Mother Tongue,
F9 for Maths,
D7 for Humanities.
now tell me how bad can my results be? i serious shit need to buck up. BUCK UP. BUCK UP. BUCK UP!!!
-enough for my studies.
holidays. yeaaaaahh. i didnt attend the camp which i am so looking forward for it. :( this is due to my flu and difficulties in breathing. not forgetting my gastric pains too. dad has been forcing me to eat because in his eyes,im getting skinnier. padahal padahal ehk. i know im like a humongous balloon that can popped anytime any second. pfft.. basically the whole of last week,i spend my entire time resting at home. so this week,since im well enough to jump and can already bully mama,i guess i wanna go out and have funnnnnnnnnn!

Chocolate Cream Chip at Starbucks is calling me. :]

Oh! one last thing. i will be a kendarat on the 6th of July at tak tau kat mane. i have to oblige to my parents permintaan to put on scarf cos i will be the odd one if i didnt. -_-'

$50 for a day,i think its worthy.

2008-06-15T09:10:00.005+08:00

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DAD!!
:)

i spent the night yesterday at pasar malam.
-_-
thats what you might be thinking right? but i dont care. because for me,sometimes it has much more nicer things than what the mall might had. budget week lah oiiii. im having a camp this coming wednesday & thursday. the transport for each of the students will be a bicycle. yesssssss, A BICYCLE. so i think our sweats will be like a container. eeewww,now thats disgusting. whatever it is, aku excited sekali!! :DDDDD

........
the money issues between me & my parents sucks.
i wanna work
PERIOD.

2008-06-10T21:16:00.004+08:00

aku suke sekali~~~

stupid diarrhoea and cramps.
how terrible can the pain gets worst?
unexplainable.

met kakak earlier today. OMG!! Aisy is cute sangat!!! Ibu was caught up with a high fever. And when i said high, it means highhhhhhh okay. have a small talk about Darjat & mainly he wants to know how long my hair have been. haha. i think thats kind of pathetic but cute. :D

met my dearest dearest bITch who then told me about her feelings of sadness.
honey. i know you're strong enough to face all this. i know that its very difficult to forget someone you love and who has been with you for more than 2 years. but when things like this happened, you have to be brave & prepare to face more obstacles ahead. living in an adult world is wayyy different. it has never been easy. you have much more better things to do rather than, in angst, cutting & hurting your hands. friends are there to support you. ART, yesssss!! thats preferable for us i guess. be STRONG okay. i miss you lotsss. :)

its raining heavily now. i cant see any buildings and im scared. seriously. whenever it comes to globalwarming or riots in other countries or etc etc,my heart will be doing a fast skipping exercise. to add on, i am eating what i am not suppose to eat; pineapples. uhuh! it is killing & poking my stomach literally.

2008-06-08T16:30:00.003+08:00

my tomorrow is today.
okay, i would like to apologise for neglecting my blog. kind of busy.
now, this will be a very longgggg post, so bear with it.

thank you!

-30052008-
its my parents anniversary.
they went for a dinner date together with my first brother & his fiancee. becauseeeeeee, on the 29th May, it was his birthday. on the other hand, im announcing that the rest of my siblings had been abandoned. hehs. okay, tu sumpah tak baik. still, as a filial daughter, *ehem ehem*, i would like to happily wish my parents a,
HAPPY 27th ANNIVERSARY!!!!
&
HAPPY BELATED 26th BIRTHDAY TO ALONG!!!!
:]

oh. aku lupe uh nak post about 27052008.
i went to E!Hub with my MERCU classmates. we'd a helluva fun day. initially Norin came up with the idea of playing pool. so we headed up to the last storey of the building. ni part ade sikittt membingitkan. the counterman asked for each of our i/c and at the same time saying that we're not allowed to enter wearing our school pants. padahal Farhan & Amin was wearing their dark coloured jeans. blind old hag. pfft. so each of us took out our i/c and gave it to him except for Mira who had forgotten to bring hers. jadi since kite semua jiwe, we then decided to play bowling instead. So there we go all the way down to level one just to enter the place and the toilet. pathetic kan? it was packed with students la. at last we end up chilling at Coffee Bean until 1445 before heading back to AMP for our oral.
-Nurin & Mira.the cheesecake they ate. half of my gfsss. -31052008 & 01062008-
family chalet at Changi. oh! include my relatives too. it was a nice gathering moments with my aunts and uncles. Ais's, one of my cousin, sons are still the cutest.the 'awak kite' conversation with them can really make you laugh your ass off. its a pity that my lovely grandma were unable to join us due to something i guess.
i bathed with Ina,this little girl whom i loveeeeee so much and i think im turning dark now.my first brother invited his fiancee whereas my second brother invited his gf. saurus didnt invite anyone but he is forever with his mp4 so i guess its okay for him from being bored.hey. in case you're wondering. that top belongs to my first brother as i'd forgotten to bring extra shirt. i sticked with kak Dee, my brother's fiancee, all the while; cycling with her, bathing with her, sleeping at home with her etc etc.it was a good bonding. kak midah, my second brother's gf cant really bond with us. bcos i think she's new.although i tried talking to her like how i did to kak Dee, oh! no coments abt her lah. it takes time i guess.on the sunday, Helmy(!) suprised me by coming to the chalet. itu budak ehk mintak kene smackdown ah. bcos........ he told me that he cant be discharged yet but out of sudden, he's there seating with my parents. grr.. thanks ehk Helmy!! terima kaseh lah banyak-banyak. lol. but booya! i like suprises. :)
-my two retard brothers. -02062008 to 05062008-
my exams week.Malay oral was a blast! the conversation part totally sucks and it pulled my marks wayyy down the drain. On the contrary, Eng oral was superb. besttttt. Maths p1 was a borderline, i screwed up my p2 due to my starkarat bloody attitude. English p1? i think i started off very well and i hope i flowed it ~~tremendously.~~ haha, self confident pe aku ni. P2 was easy for sure. satu passage lah sey. Frankly, Social Studies was BAD for me!! but suprisingly, i managed to complete and answered all the questions. Geog was er.. how should i describe it, fairly-good-try. MT was forever easy. So thats it for my studies part.

-07062008-late night chilling sesson with saurus at Starbuck TM was awesome. aku suke~~ meet up nearly to 10pm although the meeting time was actually 9pm. basically you know who's the culprit who is much known as Miss Forever Lambat kan? okay best! we headed to Sunplaza and swing-ed. reached home around 12plusplusplus.

-08062008-
today.
a bright sunny day.
i'll be having photoshoot later.
sangat excited lah!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-05-27T20:12:00.002+08:00

i had countless of funnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn today.
will blog about it tomorrow.
im tired.
goodnight!

2008-05-26T21:47:00.004+08:00

.I WANT TO BE ALONE.
no disturbance pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

random note:
i hope my yana bamboo & shah jusco will get better grades for their MT O level. no more C6 okay rascals? :]

i thought of writing about Helmy's bestfriend, not Yan or Man or even Yan's gf, but its someone else. well i guess i should just ignore her. cos i think she's selfish. sorry Helmy but i think im stating the fact here because i dont get why, out of the blue, she wrote about me in her blog saying that i dont let her to visit you in hospital. thats bullshit siak. i mean who am i to stop your friends or whoever from visiting you? jealous?! well a solid YES to only her then. frankly, you're defending and standing up for her, i think ah. & oh, you still do care for her feelings dont you? its up to you okay. im tired of babbling.

somehow or rather, i regretted knowing the three used-to-be close friends wayyyyy back in their secondary school life. i shouldnt befriended with them in the first place. but who makes the convo first? i think i should blame myself for wanting to work at SATS. Or rather, i should stick to Hot Kitchen than in Preset. i should distanced myself away from the trio. i should stick to Ama rather than knowing the teens who worked there. i just wanna be alone. [A.L.O.N.E.] no no.
i want my rascals still.
&
i want my boyfriend back.

.......
im having my exams this week and next week. in between, my family is having a chalet. i think i should go so that at least i could, yea...... you know.. chill uh. booyarh! lol.
presenting, my muke ngantok.

2008-05-22T23:06:00.006+08:00

im feeling hyper sekali :]
aku suke~~

timecheck: 11.37pm
just finished my revision on Geometry. somehow i think this time i could absorbed what Mr Hamdan taught rather than my former maths teacher. hah, 502 students, i believed you know who im talking about. kay, peace.

it seems like it has been so long i did not meet my botak, so earlier today, i decided to give helmy a suprised by popping up in the hospital. you should see the wideeeeeeeeee smile he gave. lol. once again, aku suke~~

Everything is within your reach,
Everything is possible,
And
Everything is achievable.
But one just has to have the guts
To make the first move & thus make things happen for oneself.
dedicated to Muhammad Helmy B S

the birthday celebration last Monday was cancelled due to family outing and such. oh, insert the budget too. so our dear Ain went out with her work friends and went clubbing i think. now, that doesnt mean we totally forgotten her bash okay! with syaz & norin around, you cant run away. so yar, lo and behold here comes the sweet small 19 year old girl. ;)

kene sabo in our school lift straight to the face. best pe ni part.

sidetrack- saurus art piece without a meaning. niceeeeee!

i like the middle one alotttt.

okay okay. i have school tomorrow and i dont intend to come late AGAIN.
so goooooooodnight world!
:]

2008-05-18T00:50:00.004+08:00

i miss my rascals to the core-ness. timecheck: 1.05am my eyes is still wide open. i cant sleep so i decided to blog :]
my day today was filled with laughters.
early in the morning, i accompanied my beloved mom to Masjid En-Naeem.
baik kan? lol. i have something to share here.
message-
saurus: ey. what you belajar ah? dont tell mom. quick reply.
me: he tell stories. where are you? never come ah?
saurus: come but we just reached. what stories?
me: about Nabi Musa. Ustaz's kampung, Tanjung Mulia. but the kampung now like Vietnam no 2.
saurus: okay. thnx.
me: -____________________________________-

brothers oh brothers. around 1200, i make my way to SGH to visit dear Helmy. he has been admitted to the hospital for the chemotheraphy thingy ah. at first, i thought of blogging using his laptop but because of my talkative moments, laughing moments with his dear sister, watching dvds through his laptop etc etc, so aku lupekan saje niat suci aku nak blog. tweehee.
oh by the way, there's a complainer freak in the ward. ini sumpah irritating nak mampos. retarded guy.
Helmy Helmy!!! i miss you pantat!!!!! must get well soooooooon okay? so that you can be my punchbag once again & we can have fuuuuun fantasies. ;D

...........
i just received a call from parents. i hope they'll be able to come back from JB. its a silly misunderstanding i guess. my dad's passport had been chopped when he entered JB but the funny thing was that, my mom accidentally gave the custom officer or whatsoever he's called, my first brother's passport instead of my dad one when they wants to came back. oh wait! do you guys understand? bcos i dont. nevermind lahh.
saurus is seating behind me. he has been soooooo motivated to do back his Arts after looking at one of his friends' friend's blog. typical.

i hope to have shitloads of fun this Monday as my MERCU classmates will be celebrating Ain's birthday if she's not working. and my! mom bought A solution for me & saurus which cost $110. funny enough, we had to pay her back. -_-

2008-05-13T09:23:00.005+08:00

i decided to choose this blogskin.
cos i think its kinda cute.
heehs. :]

well, my intention to blog today is to clear everything.
at times i think i am in the wrong. and at times too i think im the one who created troubles. but we're humans. tell me who did not do any mistakes in their life. tell me who is a perfectionist in handling their own pathway. tell me who never did spotted any of their friends' mistakes. but all this while, even if i am not to be blame, i guess some of you out there has the jealousy or hatred towards me. grudges is more likely the correct word. my dear gfs & my bf knows me the best. that includes my family too. i admit i can be a bitch when i cant take any of your insultation or gossips. yessss, i admit! when i start to bitch about your life, trust me,you wouldnt like it. some who once did that to me had gotten their retribution. but no worries, we're friends now. it wont be long cos i dont like to drag things or matters. whats the point kan? but for my two recent post, i hope those who read it wont misinterpret it.

what i wrote on 3rd May.
that post was a solemn one. i admit i did say allllll that bcos like i say, i can be a bitch at times. that post was full with angst. read the date. its third may. T.H.I.R.D. a week or so had past by and only yesterday you beep me asking what's my motive? asked yourself your motive for lying to helmy. to be frank, i sided you again and again. read it again,
bcos im always siding you like a piece of follower makes me blind. all your misunderstandings between your friends, even your own bestfriend, had created a whole long stretched of hatred between me and them.
i tried to tell helmy that maybe you dislike your phone to be passed around. but when he listed down what you'd done to him, the difference when you communicate with me, it was a blast. then i know the truth about you. the change in you. the real you i mean. i bet not only me or helmy spotted that, but other friend(s) of yours too. im glad that you know it clearly refers to you. but think logically la ey, even if some of my other readers know that post is meant for you, it would be only our work mates, who knew what happened. not the whole world. i know the past is past. its true what you'd said. but hey, i have to stand up for my rights too.
what mamat's sisters' messaged knock some sense in me. i dont want any of their family members to think that im having FUN out here or playing with mamat's feelings. what she said is definitely true. even i agreed. i cant blame them if they thought im really flirting with you or what bcos that is how your gf sounded in her blog right? now at least im not bad enough to mentioned both of your name and clearly stated back what you guys had done. it will be worst.

what i wrote on 12th may.
its the explanation. the elaboration. you clearly stated in the message that i cause so much trouble since i came in. & you're perfectly sure its bcos of me. hence as such being egoistic, you wouldnt want to waste your time listing down all when i asked you. haha. funneeehhhh. i think you are tooooo busy that you've forgotten who started everything since i know you. hint in that phrase ya. now, i have all the rights to say anything in my blog mind you. dont try to threaten me. i never did stop your gf from writing about me even mentioning my name. so i guess you have no rights at all to stop me from doing what i want. i have my limits, dont worry. you told man that you cant be bothered about this blog thingy when he mentioned why must your gf wrote about me. so i think, stick with that. dont bother or take a glance here. infect dont think about me & helmy cos i think befriended with him is preferable. with that, our story ends here. dont worry, i wont mentioned about both of you anymore. hope you & your love stays and be happy!:]

.........

i just received a sweet blissful msg from kakak.
Be a person full of love and life.
Stay simple yet happy.
When things go wrong, dont go blue.
Just pray & say " i will get through."
Always remember, GOD LOVE.

sumpah aku rindu dorang.

2008-05-12T20:18:00.004+08:00

when is the last time i updated my blog?
more than a week.

.........

i did not attend school today. the headache is unbearable. it sucks big time. i think something is bothering my mind.
my relationship maybe.
my studies maybe.
my family maybe.
my friends maybe.

-hypocrite-
thats what i called.

well, i think some of you readers had misinterpreted what i wrote in the last post.
i am NOT FLIRTING with Y__ and playing with my bf's feelings or what. me and him used to be a close colleague. we worked together. i think we clicked very well bcos both of us will always says that we missed our love so effing much and we will end up quarrelling over the slightest thing.

soooo, i hope whoever were to read this, pleaseeeee understand the right situation. im not a flirting type. i get scared if a guy were to approach me, what more me being a flirt? i dont toy with my bf's feelings. if you were to say that im doing it, then be it. as long as you're happy. i dont think i need to prove anything else. promise is a promise. you know what i mean. my tagboard is 'clean' but my messages in my hp are sucha darrrmnn! i respect your advices about the difference in life but hey, he knows wtv im doing here. let it be between me and him to judge our path. by this, i hope you get the correct explanation.

babylove babylove.
i miss you.

2008-05-03T11:13:00.006+08:00

fuck.
fuck that typical guy.
yes,Y.

you're happy for what you had done. you dont need friends do you? simply bcos you have a fucking girlfriend who had once message me saying all the fuck out of her shits, bitching about me in her blog, dissing me out of sudden thinking that im fucking flirting with you. and bcos of your deep love to her, you sounded sooooo much like i AM flirting with you all this while. damn you. bcos im always siding you like a piece of follower makes me blind. all your misunderstandings between your friends, even your own bestfriend, had created a whole long stretched of hatred between me and them. i regretted knowing you fuck. yesterday late night conversation with Helmy sucks. totally sucks. the shits he smacked right to my face will soon be getting on you. you reported every single thing to your gf with a pathetic hooligan face & you think we care? a 'brainy' guy indeed. fuck. fuck your life.
oh yes, Helmy's used-to-be crush, if you are reading this, oh yes yes YES. we're having a hectic moment right now. happy huh?!

............
okay da. mase mengamok dabis. ni mase happyyyyyy pulak. :D
............

Its 3th May today. and i plan to send mamat's letter today. or tomorrow. no no, comfirm Monday. so far i have written 3 pages. :)
i have news from him.
HE MISSES ME LAH!!!
he thought i'd forgotten about him.
he thought i'd forgotten his birthday.
he thought and thought and thought ...
sumpah aku suke panggil die tok giler.
lol.

i have a study session with Helmy later on. he needs my help in drawing whereas i need his help in Maths. gahhh!!!!!!!!! i hope i will be able to talk to him as per normal.

oh. i think im becoming a *ehem* good daughter. i think ah. i have been helping quite alot with the business. but still, i cant beat my brothers -_-
saurus is seating beside me right now. babbling about NS and CD. other than that, he'll talk about 25th May. people, he can get stress out over the smallest thing which i think its kinda cute. heehs.

on a random note:
i miss muhammad darjat.
i miss liyana ezzaty.
i miss liyana kechik.
i miss liew yuan yi my dearest bITch.
i miss zulaikha my Drama Queen.
i miss muhammad zuhaili my bestie.
i miss karthik my advisor.
i miss kak shikin.
i miss kak seri.
i miss kak peah.
i miss aisy.
i miss muhammad syarif my best senior.
i miss meow my low haemo partner.
i miss French Hornnis my beloved section.
i miss all my friends.
FRIENDS.

2008-04-29T20:27:00.008+08:00

my oh my.
midyear exams is around the corner.
and im planning to really focus on it which means
NO work, NO tampines, NO hangout, NO marina, NO NO NO.
macam takde life ehk aku?
but i have to do it because if we were to fail, we will be expelled from school.
i think ah.

LOL.

still, i dont wish to be expelled cos i badly wants to go to poly. also, i dont want my parents money to be wasted just like that. AND, i'd make promises to kak radmah, kakak, babylove etc etc that i will pass my Os this year.
next year da new syllabus oiiiiii. sape nak?!

lets talk about work.
for this month, i manage to work for 210 bucks.
okay da. PERIOD.

i received a message at 12.48pm.
bunga will mati, the matahari will set.
tapi you are someone i tak akan forget.
your nama terlalu precious takkan grow old,
its engraved in my hati with huruf of Gold.
i just cant stop loving you and i dont know why.
im sorry if im causing trouble but its the truth thats in me.
-ahmad idris wee.

so dear faithful readers, if there are, define LOVE.

oh. by the way, my dear saurus is desperate for jobs as he needs money before 25th May. so yar, any vacancy around????????

-pics from the Sentosa with babygirls.
AMIRAH FATIN

NOR'AIN

2008-04-22T18:07:00.003+08:00

i did not attend school today.
gastric and diarrhoea attacks.
pantat betol!

morning message-

mira: Nana. niari pakai slipper okay. same2 ngan aku.
nana: oh. tengok ah if come. i got diarrhoea ah.
mira: oh ok. aku pun ingat tknk dtg psl 1 lesson je. abih aku ngantok gile and kene kemas rumah. tgk dulu ah.

-girlfriend. -_-

i have a friend.
his name is Ahmad Idris Wee.
he's a mixed blood dude, chinese+malay.
he is a good friend and i like him being my friend.

BUT
one day, he confessed to me.
he said that he likes me when the first time we met.
he will patiencely wait for me to accept his sincere love.
speechless,i ignore.
.
.
.
.
i cant take it anymore.
he gets jealous over the silliest thing which i think is stupid.
i dont like him.
so yesterday,
i told him off like how i did to Saiful.
and i believe i am doing the right thing.
cos,
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND.
.........
nana: are you laying hope on me?
ahmad: wo pu zhi tau leh. i mean what can i do if you dont like me. so...
nana: its not that. ure a good friend. But things are getting complicated nowadays. i dont want rumours to spread in sch abt you liking me and such.
ahmad: hmm.. im so sorry for embarassing you infront of all. i will just stay quiet and you will see the new me. insyaAllah i will change to become better.
nana: ahmad! im attached!!! why dont and cant you understand? i cant lie to you or my boyfriend. for goodness sake, i only treat you as a casual friend. A CASUAL FRIEND ALL THIS WHILE. i have no intention to hurt you or what but but BUT, you're treating me differently. oh my. i still do love my bf and now i hate you. cos you just simply dont understand my status.

........
now, tell me. did i say anything wrong?
oh gawd!!!!

sidetrack.
25th coming real sooooonnnnn.
yay!!!
countingcountingcounting. :D

2008-04-20T12:54:00.004+08:00

work yesterday was hell.
short service crew and annoying staffs.
selfish supervisor and silly dumb officer.
HELL.

on the other hand, although i miss whole lot of fun celebrating syaz's birthday with my classmates last Friday, work was FUN. somehow being the youngest in all the other service crew (mainly nyonyas), make me fell ouuhh-la-la. they gave sweets, chocolates &&& ice creams. suke sekali~~

................

i dont intend to top up my prepaid card. my little thumb is sick of pressing the numbers. or alphabet. soooooo whoever who wants to call or message me, and if there's no reply, takmo marah ehk korang. PEACE.

every single members in my family will be going out today. my parents will be going out together with my first brother and his fiancee. they'll be buying a car.
eh tak tak salah.
kak Dee will be buying a car. i dont know what car will she wants to buy. untung pe abang aku tu. dapat tunang gaji sebulan tiga ribu lebih.
my second brother will be going out with his love.
saurus has not come home since yesterday.
shahid will make his own decision to follow who.
& me? i'll be going cycling!! :D

school will resume tomorrow. and i have to get back on track.
deep sighhhh.
procrastination has to stop.

oh to dearest Ain, pictures pictures pictures pretty please.
BLOGGER IS BEING SUCHA BITCH. I CANT UPLOAD ANY PICTURES.

2008-04-17T17:07:00.009+08:00

im doing Japanese curl soon.
yessssa!!

my holidays this week was a fairly enjoyable one.
no no, yesterday was awesome. Tomorrow will be a great one, i hope. families and friends are doing fine. it has been awhile since i visited kakak. now, i wonder how Aisy are. after reading kak seri's blog, some how i miss mamat's family. they're bunch of lovely gerek people la. :D

i have not yet finishes writing mamat's letter. it had always been delayed. i know im bad. yes, i am. cos why? i make him wait. wait and wait. oh, once again, he had to wait. but being very understanding and patience guy, especially with my attitude, i guess he knows how i am out here. heehs.
timecheck: 6:24pm.
i'd just received mamat's letter. sungguh sweet & meaningful.

"Setelah sekian lame terpisah antara tembok derita ini,
namun namamu sentiasa terpahat di dalam hatiku.
Wajahmu seringku terbayang didalam mimpiku.
Hadirmu di dalam hidupku umpama pelangi,
yang sungguh indah tiada corak kelukaan,
didalam diari hatiku"
LOVED.

12042008
i'll always remember this particular day. it gave me sweet-sugary-memories. at long last after much scoldings, perseverance, tears and sweats, my wonderful lovely band achieved the best band in the year 2008. and to top on that, they clinched the three awards,
GOLD WITH HONOUR BAND.
BEST DRUM MAJOR IN 2008.BEST DISPLAY BAND IN 2008.
Deyi band gave a great impressions to the people sitted in the stadium. most of all, to the judges. they compete fairly. all their hardwork pays off. congrats to my band conductor, Mrs Chee, teachers and ex-members. to my dear ex-cos, you guys had lead the band well. congrats too!

i'd meet my section wayyyyy before they stepped in the field to fight. faith is always there. my juniors were great. Liang chi, the Sectional Leader had done a good job i believed. Ting ting & Lea are still the chickies in my section. oh, by the way,
hey lea.. you'd done it!! no need to stress stress lagi okay? and eh, you hugged me so tightly that i can hardly breath in my joy. aha. love you sweets!sorry to my dear ex-French hornis, i only manage to took ryan's picture as he stands at the circumference.and my oh my. i prefer our instrument last time rather than this, mellophone. pfft.-unprepared-the seniors of horns. 13042008work. work. work. work.
morning shift seriously suckssss.

14042008
i had to attend night class from 1930 to 2130. but due to my cramps, aku lupekan saje niat suci aku nak pergi. around 1600++, i forced helmy to come down to my place before he proceeded to meet his family for a dinner. reason? cos im damn bored sitting at home, un-bathe lagi. so with his lazy ass(agaknye), he met me to hang out with him until 1930. eh, thanks ehk!

15042008
i went to maths class at 10 in the morning. it was fun without some irritating bastards who just come for the sake of attendance. sungguh tak mendatangkan hasil. lol.

16042008
oh yes! this day was awesome. Ain, Mira & I met up at 1100 at Harbourfront. okay, janji melayu standard uh. the night before, we planned to meet at approximately 0930 BUT satu satu bangun lambat so yea~~~
after buying some snacks, we headed to Sentosa!!!!!!!
FUN. GEREK. ENJOYABLE. HAPPY SANGAT. SUKE SEKALI.
okay, more pics will be posted later cos my dear Ain have not send it to me.

2008-04-11T17:09:00.004+08:00

the workshop lecturer's note to me.

i just finish updating and editing kakak's profile.
:)

reached home at 1400 just now. school was fairly okay. the debate went quite well. my group which is the opposition won. :DD syaz, ain and me did speak up but the other group was kinda plain. only ela does the talking. mira and norin were just keeping quiet when ela talks.
kay ni part, understand understood ah.

today, is the first time, my class attendance are very bad. Lina, Ahmad, Rasyidah, Iman did not attend both classes. so i guess you can imagine how pathetic the class were.
a picture during the workshop. nampak decent tapi nonsense. sumpah aku tak tipu. ps: syaz, norin and ela have been selected for the inter class debate. the other person will be either me or mira. I HOPE I WONT BE CHOSEN.

yesterday precious moments at Pasir Ris Park was AWESOME!!!
*caktengteng*
yesss. kite kite je yang tau ehk.
oh, i bought a yellow tube and a black spagetti shirt. aku suke~~
both of it cost $6 onlyyyyyyy.

oh. on a slight note.
ALL THE BEST DEYI MILITARY BAND FOR SYF TMR!!!!!
you guys can do it. beat TK and prove to the judges. yea.
&&&, i've started my hols. happy sekali.

tell me the reason why i love listening to Melly Goeslow musics.

2008-04-09T20:18:00.007+08:00

i had just end my conference with Mira, Ain, Lina and Syaz.
it was a hectic one.
about the debate this coming Friday and about the conflict between Ahmad and the whole class.(except for me,iman,amin and mira)
well, i just hope that tomorrow's confrontation will be okay and everything will be back as per normal.

after lesson Mira and I went to town to get my Victoria Secret. :D
the journey was awesome. i love it although its just both of us.
hahha. we seriously have many common things. yea. many. banyak sekali.
-our family backgrounds.
-our 'nakal' moments last time.
-our mischievous acts.
-our 'coincident' ustaz.
-our laughter.
-our attitudes.
etc.
etc.
etc.
but NO, we dont have the same boyfriend.

after buying my body spray, we went to have our lunch at LJS at Faiz Plaza.
ni part seriously belo. both of us took out our coins infront of this malay guy who is standing at the counter. we then counted the money infront of him and damn(!) we looked like a retarded girls who can clearly be seen to fail our maths. -_-
tapi kan, nasib baik laki tu nampak selenger sikit. kalau handsome, sumpah memalukan.
haha.toooooo concentrated in her drinks.

around 1430 we headed back to Eunos as we are to attend a Motivational Workshop at 1500. as usual, starkarat. we reached school at 1515. but the teacher who conducted the workshop was soooo nice that he let us in and simply continued. at first i thought it was boring but after some jokes and hilarious scenes, aku suke~~.
i've learned alot of students' diseases such as
Taint Myfaultosis of you Mademedoititis,
Chronic Ignoramus Fatalis,
Goal Absentheria etc.

all in all, today was a nice day for me. the laugh throughout the walks from Heeren to Faiz was the best. yes, i am the laughing machine.

oh, ytd, was quite a good one. to summarise:-
went to geylang to buy some skirts with mom, along and helmy after school.
along bought for me a nice sweet long sleeve shirt which i think it looks so much like a lady-like type.
headed to TP with itu budak yang sumpah irritating.
main-main hujan for a moment.
bought two skinnies. no no, helmy bought for me. kay, ni part sweet.
around 1930 meet along & kak Dee at TM. went to eat Pizza Hut.(sangat sedap)
belanje at Shop & Save.
(yes, thats typical)
home sweet home at 2130.